I can't believe how long it has been since I last visited Xanga!

Where has the time gone?!?  I've been spending a lot of time on Facebook.  I love Facebook.  I really need to get caught up on everyone's lives.  Then I need to go to bed.  It's almost 2am.  I was up late studying (again) and I'm exhausted. 

Hello to all my xanga friends!  I'll be back again soon!

I love my iPod!

I got my iPod for Mother's Day this year and I haven't really used it much.  I downloaded a few songs and a few gemstone videos for a class I'm taking but that's it.  The other night every one was sleeping and I really wanted to exercise but I hate exercising with out the tv on and I couldn't turn it on because the weight room is pretty close to the bedrooms.  I decided to download a movie on to my iPod so I could still exercise and watch something at the same time.  I downloaded the movie "Fletch" with Chevy Chase.  I have only watched half of it but it is soooo funny.  I can't wait to exercise tonite so I can watch the last half of it. 

I also found out that I can rent movies to watch on my iPod.  I dont know if I'll ever rent anything but I like the fact that I can if I wanted too.  This afternoon I'm going to download my favorite movie of all time - What about Bob.  I love having an iPod!

The high road - what a lonely road to travel

Sometimes I really hate taking the high road.  When someone does something to me there are times that I really want to stick it to them, but no, I choose the high road.  I suck it up, count my blessings and remind myself that revenge is God's.  That's where I'm trying to be tonite - but that low road is looking mighty appealing.

I recently had to testify for some one and the other guys lawyer tried to use my xanga account against me.  I know that xanga is open to the public and I honestly don't care who sees what I write.  I like it when people read my blog - that's what it's here for.  What I don't like is that someone took something that was a good thing for my family (my son's adoption) and tried to turn it into something terrible. 

I know I should take the high road and let it go.  Honestly it doesn't really matter what he tried to do.  He didn't succeed.  He can't make me look bad because Austin's biological dad gave up his rights and my husband adopted Austin (for the complete story see January 2006 comments).  I should just continue on the high road and never look back.  But part of me doesn't want to.  Part of me wants to take the low road and comment on how that lawyer guy has such terrible 80's hair.  But what would that accomplish?  Nothing.  I would just end up feeling guilty. 

So tonite I'm taking the high road.  I'm sucking it up, counting my blessings (I have an awesome family, a great place to live, great hair that is not teased beyond recognition and would not ensnare small children and small farm animals) and I'm going to let God deal with this guy however he sees fit.  And if Mr. lawyer guy happens to read this I hope that he sees me driving above him on the high road, my beautiful hair blowing in the wind and a happy, peaceful smile on my face and maybe he'll be encouraged to take the high road himself one day - and hopefully he'll pull over and get himself a good hair cut.

I can't believe July is here!  Where did June go?  I was pretty depressed the first part of June.  Thankfully I got myself together and I'm feeling much better.  I hate going through depression.  I seem to do so well for a few months and then I take a dive.  I didn't have this problem when I lived in WI.  Ya, maybe I would get a little down in the winter - but who doesn't sometimes after you've spent all your money on Christmas gifts and it's freezing outside.  This time my depression started when school was out for the kids.  I home school the kids and when summer was here I didn't know what to do with myself.  I don't totally like it here in TX and all that time on my hands just made me remember that.  Homeschooling took up so much of my time - planning, teaching, projects, field trips, etc.  Once all that stopped I felt like my life just stopped.  I spent two weeks sleeping in, playing my DS (I beat my Tigerz game and just recently started playing Mario vs. Sonic at the Olympics, which I love), and reading.  My kids were happy to be out of school.  They slept in too, played games, and played outside.  Thankfully they seemed unaware of how empty I felt inside.

I decided that I couldn't keep on living like this so I decided to start on a project.  I totally redid my son's room.  It looks like something out of a magazine.  It took me an entire week and I got the kids involved and we had a great time.  Then I finished up a gemology class I was taking and painted my entry way and dining room.  Then I cleaned my entire house from top to bottom - all 3000 sq. feet of it.  I even pulled a bunch of weeds in one of my flower beds.  All of that kept me busy for two weeks.  I finished every thing as of Friday.  Over the weekend I started to feel down again, especially in the mornings.  I remembered that last year at one point I took some thing called 5htp for my depression and it worked amazingly well.  I started taking that and I feel so much better.  I am so thankful for that stuff.

On a positive note our pool is no longer a swamp!  We had to pay a pool guy to come out every other day for three weeks but it's finally clear!  We swam in it for the first time tonite.  It was so great.  The kids had a blast.  It was an awesome way to spend the evening as a family. 

This is one of those busy days where I feel like I can hardly take a second to breathe.  I have so much to do today, so why am I wasting time on xanga?  Well, I haven't posted pictures on here forever so I thought I would take a second and do just that while I'm thinking about it.  Then it's back to work! 

The last picture is of Brianna and Dave at her Brownie ceremony.  The other two were taken on my birthday last week.  One of the things Dave bought me was a Texas cowboy hat.  Very funny.  This picture maybe the only time anyone ever sees me in it!  I actually like it but I'm not a hat person.  I might hang it on the wall though.  It's pretty cute in person.

Austin is getting so big.  He's taller than I am and has been for a while.  Him and Brianna are such awesome kids.  I am so blessed.  Dave is an amazing husband.  When I think about them I have so much love for them I feel like my heart will explode!